Life threw me the biggest and cruelest curveball when my husband (fiancé at the time) and best friend, Jason, was diagnosed with Stage IIIC Colon Cancer 7 months before our wedding.

A clear scan at the end of Chemotherapy ahead of our wedding led us to thinking we had made it out the other side.

We were married on September 7th, 2024.

I thought we had everything ahead of us.

We discovered Jason’s cancer reoccurrence just weeks after returning from our blissful Bali honeymoon in early October, days after his 37th birthday.

Jason didn’t get to celebrate 38.

Evil cancer took Jason from this earth on August 17, 2025. 

Three weeks before our first wedding anniversary.

Jason’s death widowed me at 31 years old.

Jason was my plan for my entire life.

I’ve been using writing to help process the pain and grief of losing the love of my life.

I've created this space to share about mine and Jason’s love story, Jason’s cancer journey through my eyes as his fiancé, wife, caregiver, and best friend; my journey now that he’s gone, and everything in between.

These posts are for me, and anyone else who finds value in my writing and our story. Take what you need and leave what you don’t.

I hope to carry on Jason’s legacy in all that I share.

I also hope to honor and give space to her, the woman I was along side Jason, through it all, and the woman I will become after losing him.

Who that woman is yet, I don’t know.

These are real, these are raw, these are my words and they represent my feelings, memories, in time and space through a journey I would wish on no one.

If you have different versions of these stories, good for you!

Welcome to Life. Loss. Love with Lauren.

Thank you for being here, I hope you find what you are looking for.

-Lauren